Scribbles…

The load may be heavy, but with the help of Allah azza wa jal, things will become easy inshaAllah

Isn’t it funny that often some of the most important stuff we write in scribbles, on random pieces of paper, later to be found as we randomly go through things…

If you’re like me, you might write something so meaningful, so inspiring, so important to your life and soul, only to forget about it…You write it hoping that you will post a blog about it, commit it to memory, tell people about your realization, or just smile at the wisdom you gained and pray for it’s application.

As I was flipping through a stack of blank pages I keep to study on and…by the way, I don’t memorize unless I write something a million and one times, and often, I don’t have time for that, so I always forget…Anyways, as I was flipping through the stack of paper I found one with some notes on it I had taken during Ilm Fest from a session by sheikh Yaser Birjas I believe. It served as the ultimate best reminder for me right now…Hope you find these lines of benefit too inshaAllah…

~ A sin that brings you closer to Allah azza wa jal is better than a good deed that makes you arrogant

~ Be better in other areas of your life while you perfect and work on the weaker areas

~ Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala wants to see us strive

~ Use the sins to form a relationship of humility and causative to do good ands strive

~ Whoever obeys -> ultimate victory

~ And best of all, I leave you with this powerful and very encouraging and motivating verse:

“قل يا عبادي الذين أسرفوا على أنفسهم لا تقنطوا من رحمة الله إن الله يغفر الذنوب جميعا إنه هو الغفور ارحيم”

قُلْ يَا عِبَادِيَ الَّذِينَ أَسْرَفُوا عَلَى أَنفُسِهِمْ لَا تَقْنَطُوا مِن رَّحْمَةِ اللَّهِ إِنَّ اللَّهَ يَغْفِرُ الذُّنُوبَ جَمِيعًا إِنَّهُ هُوَ الْغَفُورُ الرَّحِيمُ 

Qul ya AAibadiya allatheena asrafoo AAala anfusihim la taqnatoo min rahmati Allahi inna Allaha yaghfiru alththunooba jameeAAan innahu huwa alghafooru alrraheemu

39:53 Say: “O my Servants who have transgressed against their souls! Despair not of the Mercy of Allah. for Allah forgives all sins: for He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.

Ocean Heart

Ocean’s pure water won’t remain that way
if it insists on visiting the shores.
It says “I’ll only touch the shore once and return”
and thinks it won’t open other doors.

But it comes back with new sand
and new seashells
that at first seem harmless and light
But they are the ones that sink down-
to the bottom and out of sight.

What comes back from the shore
is the result of the tide trying to escape
Foolish soul didn’t realize
that escape was ever too late.
The tide must bring something back
no visit goes unpaid.

This ocean never at rest
never knowing what direction to take
It can’t help the droplets that fall into it
Nor save ones that evaporate

Open Sea, open me…

An aquarium-would be lovely
With glass to limit and a plastic cover.
All in place…

Not like this open sea, open me, open heart.
Wondering helplessly in pitch dark.
How this life will turn and how it will dart…
How this life will end faster than it will start.
And if I’m not ready to live
and not ready to die,
then what exactly am I ready for?

The waves crash!
My emotions clash!
Clear me of this ocean’s trash-
bits of broken green glass-
And memories of seagulls circling above-
And fishes circling within-
O my heart where have you been?

My palm scoops a sample of water in hand
The water slips through
and I’m left with sand.
And I can’t stand
to let pure water go…

Open Sea, Open Heart,
I try to float and not sink below.